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I completed a small set today, after another auction for the matching pearl necklace. Nephrite (left) and Coral. Rice pearls and gold, 9ct. 18” for me and 16” for hers.

ebay

I won a bidding war yesterday, and bought these 2x necklaces from charity. It’s 9ct gold pearl and nephrite, and the other is tumbled stone. I only wear my gold chain at present, so it will be a gourmet option.

NDERF

I’ve been a reader of nderf.org for a long time, and I can’t quite recall where I first learned of it, no doubt when researching NDEs in general. If you’re not in the know, it’s a blog with stories and research, and to read some of these write ups is exceptional.

Take these submissions as 100% stories from the internet, some have a clear religious bias; but to read these tales brings a feeling of oneness in the human experience, and some of the similarities across the 1000s of stories is remarkable.

I have some favourites saved:

I only just found Sandi’s now, while browsing the archive of the exceptional, and quickly placed it top of the list.

I implore you to read one or more of the submissions here, and see for yourself the wonder and the scale of these experiences. It becomes easier to draw your own conclusions and correlations between the lines, and see what commonalities or topics are always present.

I’d like to close with an excerpt from Sandi’s story, words that struck me:

 

After a great deal of time exploring, seeing beautiful and wonderful sights, we stopped in space near a nebula. Nebulas are even more beautiful than they appear in photos.

‘That is the answer to your question.’

I understood that everything that we do here on Earth, all that we are, all that we experience, allows creation to exist. Every beautiful thing, every wonderful being and creature, whether on earth or in any universe, relies upon people who are on the extremely rare places like Earth.

The Great Intelligence (god) is a paradox. It is completely loving and fully unlimited. Which by the definition of paradox, means it is impossible? It cannot be limited only to love; it cannot be limited to only being unlimited; or it is not unlimited.

Earth is a place where the unlimited becomes limited; where the singular becomes many. Here, it can know community and loneliness. It can know heartache and hope. It can know all which an unlimited being of pure love cannot. It can conceive and perceive evil; which in truth it cannot do this either. To solve the paradox, it must experience helplessness and limitation and all as it is Real. In this place, it is all so REAL.

So what is free will? Free will is the option to come here to help solve the paradox of ‘god’. To be all that we are not, so that everything wondrous and joyful may continue to exist. So that love itself may continue to exist. So that the Unlimited is not limited to being only unlimited.

Why are the answers always, ‘simply to exist’ and ‘to choose love’ and ‘to learn how to love’? Because all you need to do, to solve the paradox, is to exist. And as we exist here, each time we choose love, we expand the universe. Love is life’s longing for itself. Despite the reality of what we live, even the darkest souls among us cannot help but to reach, to yearn, and move towards goodness and towards love.

For love is the true nature of who we are. And when we experience horrible things, the question ‘why’ comes to mind because it is the central question of love, life, and of this world. The answer is ‘so that all things might continue to exist.’

Every soul chose to come here and to suffer because of love. Each soul loves the universe, loves life, and loves this world and ALL of the worlds. Each soul loves ALL of the people so immensely and intensely that they chose to come here so that all the universes may teem with beautiful, joyful LIFE.

Every creature that I saw, acknowledges that your life gives them the gift of life. And when each soul goes ‘home’ after they die, they will know the rewards of their own gift, too. The ‘reward’ for their sacrifice will be joy, love, and feeling incredible, wonderful, beautiful joy at the LIFE and the LOVE everywhere in the universe.

When you go home, you meet your own soul. You willingly came here to forget yourself. You willingly came here to save every beautiful and wonderful thing. By suffering what ‘god’ cannot, you give the gift of life.

create

i yearn for a creation that spans eras of me, a memoir or archive that reflects my ongoing spirit. to detail and note the growth of my being and ability. i like to think my paintings are almost snapshots of a time, i can feel and know the energy that went into them. i have a desire to create something new now, with grandeur and scale. paintings come to mind, but objects and sculptures are tempting.

joie de vivre

i like to think it’s what i live for, the enjoyment of life. to pursue and relish in the endless stream of whimsy and joy the world can offer. it can often feel sisyphean to be this way, amidst struggle, stress, or sorrow. yet it would be a shame to pass up this short time we are granted on this plane. i do find enjoyment, wonder, and love in everything, it’s probably what i’m most proud of. it’s a romantic world if you want it to be.

time is a healer

how does one ever move beyond the sentimentality of it all, the potential that every decision, every moment lived, no matter how big or small, may very well be a pivotal moment of a change in fate, yet in the moment you are none wiser.
i think fondly of the people i’ve known, the interactions and experiences past; for they shape me to the man i’ve become. my conscience sometimes weighs heavy with few regrets, about how i could have communicated better, to my friends and loved ones. i reflect on my decisions and understand that i can only strive to improve this, and help myself to not make the same mistakes, and to speak up earnestly.

northern soul 2000

i liked a tweet that i saw today, it described someone “training themselves to articulate what is in their soul”. it made me feel connected to the greater self. i related.
i’ve been feeling a similar thought in my reflections recently, so it reminded me that the true wants and desires of my soul will always grow, and continue to develop. as long as i am true to my self, the path of self development is one inevitable, and one to be proud of.
goodnight 🙂